Hello everyone. Hope all of you had a whale of time for Lunar New Year. When I looked back on my past Lunar New Year celebrations, the nostalgia was so overwhelming that I almost drowned in it. Sadly speaking people like me who was deemed to lead a drifting life always wont to view traditional festivals in a more detached manner with every year gone by. Anyway, don't worry my dear readers, I'm not here to talk twaddle on the falling significance of Chinese new year, the reason is I had already exhausted my present insights on the previous post about the imbecile roots theory so whatever I could elucidate today would hardly pass those pitfalls.
Something happened to me prior the Lunar New Year. The details of that revolting incident I do not wish to illustrate again but it stimulates me to ponder on one perpetual yet modern concept: inferiority complex. The problem for me is, if I want to delve into the issue in depth it is bound to drag in extremely touchy topics regarding races and nationalities. Nowadays the internet has laced the social network with fatal poison of self-righteousness (and that complex) hence it is perilous to fondle these touchy things in conjunction with the insightful thoughts without kindling the idiotic fire of accusations. Therefore to avoid the danger of waging a futile war with morons, the substance in the reasoning part would be a lot weaker.
Having that said, I'm not giving up on shedding light (personal beautiful enlightenment, let me quote from C.S Lewis 'if it doesn't help you, drop it.') on certain psychological problems. Simply because I want to inspire people to change this damn complex in them and also, if people are unbelievably obdurate in persisting feeling inferior, they can at least minimize the degree of abject agony on others.
Inferiority complex has been very prevalent probably since any mental enlightenments pervaded in all civilizations, and social media in today's age and time makes it appears to be more rampant than ever. Just before this wonderful post I saw someone post on Facebook appearing dismal that she wanted to be as good as everybody because she feels she's lacking in everything. Despite the fact that I'm a socially impaired person, the rational region of the brain tells me give her some sort of solace and conciliate her in the 'warmest' wording possible. But I don't feel like it.
Yup I don't feel like placating such people by racking my brain on compliments. Firstly I'm socially impaired (or I'm just a nasty person if that's a more comfortable construal for you) and secondly I don't think it is going to be helpful to present ostentatious praises as a remedy for her inferiority. But then I still managed to come up with some compliments wrapped in the form of reminders, reminding her she has musical talents. Don't think that's going to work for long, but still, I tried to change my own disposition a little.
I understand how it is like to feel when you are not as good as others. The feeling is intensely suffocating and basically your mind and soul are laced with cobra's venom, killing yourself and grooming a huge potential of hurting others. The very first step to solution is to know you do not know everyone. On what basis can you know a clear indication of other people's ability with comparison of yours? How do you know he or she is not experiencing the same complex as you? You may say you know this person well enough that he or she is well-versed in a particular field. But then again you are not him or her. You compare yourself to such a person and that person may be comparing himself or herself to someone better. He or she may not even care about how you think of him or her, what he or she wants is to surpass someone better.
Of course I am also aware there are some people who just love to bask their credentials in front of their peers. Such homo sapiens are just slightly above basic creatures and they need to have hubris reeking off their visage to maintain their self-esteem, pitiful organisms really. Those credentials are nothing in my eyes when someone incessantly neglecting their inner well-being and live on other people's glares as a parasite does. It is like a dog who is able to hunt well, you give recognition to its skills but that's all. You wouldn't, in your right mind, reverently adore it like you adore your parents. A dog is a dog, it is right for you to treat it properly without abusing it in any ways but not obliged for you to idolize it and endorse the creature with human rights. My point is, ignore them by lowering those people from human to humanoid low-level creatures. No matter how stupid you think you are, you won't lick a dog's balls, will you? Will you?
Guess that factual rudimental knowledge is just another paper-thin layer of statement, most of you probably still feeling shitty about yourself. Fine then, you are lousy. You are not as good as everyone. So what are you going to do about it? Walk around the neighbourhood with draped cheeks like Churchill (btw he is one of the last people I would title under inferior) and a sullen face, pour out the pains to whoever you meet, and waste time talking about solutions and then starts the cycle all over again tomorrow morning. Well sometimes I wonder if these people really want to escape the inferior zone. Aren't they not enjoying themselves tremendously by self-pitying? If you really endorse the idea of self-pitying so much, limits that to your acquaintances or your ex-es or any strangers that doesn't care about you a whit. Inflicting such emotions on people who love you would just prodigiously taunts them within. What hurts them the most is not you're feeling inferior but the situation where you refuse to remove the mental shackles which you chain yourselves with.
What I did to myself was, first shook off the wrong perception that I blatantly assumed to know every other human being's strength and then did the necessary 'see no evil' baptism and at last, in an effort to dredge up the remaining inferior shreds, I ventured into self-enhancement. I wrote poorly so I started reading books, attempting to raise the writing style to a new horizon. I spoke poorly, so I imitate people who speaks well. I was a slow reader, so I took on certain speed reading trainings and now I can finish reading a medium volume book in just a few hours. Oh before you mock me on how trivial my problem seems to be, I need to remind you again you are not me. You will not know that in my world, my problems swell as big as nuclear armament.
About the final outcomes of my self-enhancement programme I cannot give a definite answer on how much I had progressed. Reason being I don't know. I mean we are not playing RPG so there isn't a little rectangular box on the upper left hand corner to check if I had levelled up. What I am happy is that I know I'm definitely improving, though sometimes it bugs me that no clear reports I can secured to check how far I've gone but the fact that I am literally modifying the inner being on a daily basis has already jabbed me much exhilaration that no amount of complex can rob away.
I genuinely hope those of you whose heads buzzed with inferiority complex demons can purge them with a determination to exsanguinate Hitler. Please remember whenever you indulge yourself in self-pitying, first and foremost your brain is convulsed with such rancour which will ultimately spill on those who care about you.
Good night, folks.
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